NIPPLES!

I got some nipples on Friday.  Talk about words you'd never thought you'd say!! I also got some new t-shirts and you can see my nipples, its hilarious! I can't get over it.  I like them, its weird to have nipples, I don't remember having them.  Its strange because I've gotten used to my new body, I don't remember my old body and I don't really miss it.   I know you want to hear about the installation process now! Or at least I want to write about it.  We went to the specialty clinic not the surgery center and they did it right there in a weird surgical room.  I got to sit/lay in a sort of dental chair type thing.  My husband got to watch and I was fully awake, not sedated.  They gave me local anesthetic even though I don't have much feeling in my breasts which worked well on the right side but on the left side I felt pain when he cut through except I didn't feel it on my breast, I felt it on my side.  My surgeon said that is very normal, that the nerves will reconnect from wherever they can, he thought I might feel it on my back, because the skin/muscle there is from my back and it still has connective blood vessels and things going into my back.  He then told us a story of a girl whose arm was almost removed in an accident and she could feel her funny bone in her ribs, its really bizarre, even though I am sort of an odd Frankenstein myself, I think it blows my mind to think they can put a whole arm back on.   Anyway back to the procedure, to start they gave me a shot in each breast of epinephrine, he said that it is so that I don't bleed all over while I am awake and John was there and its just less gory all around so no one (meaning John) vomits or passes out, ect.  Which worked well because there wasn't much bleeding, although they don't tell you until you start to feel really shaky that you then absorb that epinephrine into your blood stream and your heart races and you feel shaky and like running and running and running.  He cut a sort of odd teepee shape into my breast and stood it up and then stitched it together, and voila! it looks like real nipples!  They are very red, bloody gross nipples right now but they look real.  After I get the tattoos on them they will look really good.   He also revised the end of one of my scars because it pushed up and he made it so that it would be flat, not a really big deal but it bothered me and he likes everything to be perfect.  It was funny my Mom said how straight my nipples looked, and I said of course they do, he's not a hack!  Before the surgery he measured them out to be very much aligned with one another and they are very straight.  After surgery when I was shaky and felt like running they said I should have sugar so they gave me juice, I'm not really sure why having sugar will help with having absorbed epinephrine into one's bloodstream, it seems like that would have the opposite effect of calming you down, I think I'm going to google it now to find out more.  It went so well to get nipples, its the easiest surgery ever! I felt very cold and tired Friday night and most of Saturday but being cold and tired is pretty much my standard after surgery.  I ate a lot of candy and ice cream all weekend so I'm really going to need to step it up at the gym this week.  I also have a lot of other things to do this week for Christmas prep, I think I should go back for more epinephrine to get everything done!